Emptiness is still really heavy and i hate it.
I just actually realized that the feeling of being empty is one of the most heavy feelings i've ever experienced. Because, for me, it feels like i'm inside a cage, suffocating and being drained by all of my thoughts and other feelings that even though they feel minor at the moment, they still are there. But, i can't react to them. i just can't react Because i feel more empty than anything and they don't fell real at all. And honestly, as i heard in Deep End: " Throughout my life, deep inside i never felt alive" The good thing about it all, i think it is that i kinda became fearless to a lot of things and feelings that most people freak out for. Like the expectations of having a head on collision with your car and it actually CAN happen but it doesn't scare me at all. Life will happen. And it doesn't matter what i do, what i feel, what i say, it will continue to happen in front of my eyes. Even when i feel frozen inside my head. ...